Whelp

Nothing has changed. Still fat. Still pathetic

I seriously want to die. I cannot take being in public and having to go to work or run errands and have people stare at all the fat on my body.

Just wanted to say hi and I'm still here and still reading. Just dont feel worthy enough to talk to any of you.

Loves

<3

I shoulda never gone to Wisconsin

FAILURE. FAILURE. FAILURE. FAILURE.

I cannot believe the damage that was done this past holiday weekend. Like seriously, my weight has never fluctuated so mush in my whole life.

I fucking cannot stand how I feel right now. Like a bloated disgusting fat piece of shit. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without getting teary eyed. My stomach and arms and face looks so huge. I don't even want people to look at me.

My plan for the weekend is sleep and workout. Run to Walmart. Clean and do laundry. No outings. No fun. No socializing. It's a fatty death wish.

I seriously cannot have a life if until I get thin. And it's been pretty easy just being by myself since I cut basically every one from my life. I was so strong last week. I will re-build that strength this weekend. I WILL.

Loves.

<3